10 years

I am not sure if you caught it in my last post, but it was almost 10 years TO THE DAY when I first started this blog. If you want a good laugh and horrible food pictures, check it out here.

Whew. Can we just take a breath with that for a minute?

10 fucking years. Good god almighty.

Let’s review things that have changed since then…

I have changed companies for work…twice.

I have bought and moved into new houses…twice.

I GOT A DOG!

I have bought 2 new cars. One being my Ford Ranger (which I currently own and love).

I have been in and out of relationships AND gotten a divorce. It’s ok, I am alright.

Changed dance companies.

Made and lost friends.

Lost family & reconnected with family.

…..

Can we just…

Like HOW DID THIS HAPPEN!?

When I started this little blog I had no idea what I was getting into. How many people I would meet with it. What it would mean to me.

People started following my journey. My recipes. My life.

When things started to fall apart personally for me a few years ago, honestly I felt exposed and I took a break. A looooooooong break. I needed to collect up all my little broken bits and try and move on.

I needed to figure out who I was again, what I wanted to say. What I NEEDED to say. For so long, I was living according to someone else’s plan and in the last few agonizing, painful, raw years… I have figured out who I am. Who I really am.

There are little pieces of me that still linger from 10 years ago, but I can honestly say I am proud of the person I have become and who I am still becoming.

I’ve learned that as we go through life, we change and morph and ebb and flow so many times. We put so much pressure on ourselves to be one way or another instead of just allowing what IS happening, how we ARE feeling, to just…. be.

I guess I have learned how to try and accept that I need to trust exactly where I am, when I am there and trust that damn process. Something I have preached for years in regards to fitness… but guess what? It also is for life, self and love.

Be kinder to yourself in times of struggle. Try and allow space for yourself to expand.

What I am loving corner:

I am reading a new book called Where the Crawdads Sing by Delia Owens. Came by recommendation from one of my friends Jen. I am really loving it. It is absolutely beautifully written. Poetic really.

I am also loving my garden and how well it is doing DESPITE some really horrible starts to the season (horn worms, beetles and zero water). Thank you plants for growing and feeding me through this pandemic. It helps that I only eat veggies these days, easier on the wallet in the end 🙂

Thanks for sticking around with me and seeing where this crazy journey goes…

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